another sleepless night.
Hi buddies!
welcome back to my blog yay
do you miss me?
i think no,
time flies really fast. (i always said
that repeatedly)
another random thought at 2:28 a.m.
"I think we spend too much time
wondering why we're not good enough. we spend too much time overreacting. we
waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don't ever stop to
see that well, we are good enough. You
are good enough. We spend
too much time with our heads down and hearts closed; and never get a chance to
look up from the ground and see that the sun is shining and tomorrow is another
day." this poem i got randomly somewhere.
i am still asking the same question every
single day; what does the life
want me to be?
or what does the life want me to do?
i still have no idea
of it.
but i have faith. i got family. bapak and
mamak. i have four beautiful sisters. i have friends. i was studied in
university. i sleep in a good bed. waking up late in the morning. i drink milo
because i like it. i comb my hair and concealed bad hair day everyday. i
learned accounting. i ate pisang coklat. i cried. mad. sad. happy. cried.
laugh. but most of that, i
have God. i am good.
i do not know where the life will bring me
then.
born. enjoyed my childhood. falling in love with a guy in 2nd
grade of primary school. being the best student in junior high school. being a
silly student and called sili by my senior high schoolmate. met bestfriends in
kssk, sisters and brothers from another mother in xxiv paskhaskibra. stuck in
inten tho. being confused about all the college stuff. got a red line word in snmptn.
cried. blame everythings. hopeless night. but the show must go
on. fight for sbmptn. inten with pacupicu squad. suddenly being a social student in just
three weeks, learned about economics, history, sociology,geography. weird.
Praise the lord, accepted in kampus kuning which is my dream since i was in
junior highschool but left it behind and decided to studied in one of
university in Semarang, tembalang exactly because one and another reason. being
a normal colleger for three weeks.being anak kos in Banjarsari room M.
memorized and sang mars Undip in ODM. and then accepted in kampus Ali Wardhana-
my parents wish. God has
another plan. flight back to medan. preparing college stuff. flight to
Jakarta by myself with my highschool friend named Della who accompanied by her
mom&dad but i am just with myself. and here i am sharing you this random
thought.
if you asked me, am i happy? i'll told you of course ya.
i know after all this time, everything was
not expected. the place. every single smile i met everyday. the weather. the
rain. the dark night. i realized everythings happened and changed not in my
hand's control or yours indeed! it
was in His hand.
am i good enough to write Him a book of my dream's list and pray Him to write "as you wish" in every word of mine,,,?
i am curious.
